Thursday, September 25, 2014

Long, I am here

Your eyes that are like emerald
Seem frozen in time
Stuck with pain
 filled with hurt
I wish to help
Yet there’s nothing I can do
I should just give up
But the pain won’t let me to
The void in my heart just won’t close
Pain clots my throat
Tears fill my eyes
I wish you could let go
For when there is nobody else
There is I

My Lasting Winter Memories

This is a story of my first winter here in Maryhill. We moved here from Seattle I was really sad. My parents had just separated and it was hard for me to choose one of them so I decided to move here at my granma’s. I didn’t like her much but anything was better than staying at home and watching my parents fight all the time. It was a very hard time for me. I was about only 8 years old then. I don’t think that I could’ve been able to come out of it if it wasn’t for her.
She was considered an outcast here. She lived in her huge mansion on the corner of the town. She was really nice to everyone but they were really mean to her. They said that she was a winch who ate her whole family. They labeled her as a bad omen.
It’s a Thursday I think. I was forced to sit with my granma and her friends for tea, I somehow escaped from that hellhole, I kept running till I found myself in the woods and I had no idea how’d I get there. I tried searching my way out of the woods but I was getting nowhere and it  was getting  really chilly, weird noises started to come out from all sides I was really scared now, Then I started to notice some movements around me. I heard it getting closer and closer. I picked up a stick to defend myself. I was about to hit whatever was creating the noise when a nurturing voice came out of nowhere. I was relived. I knew this voice it was Ms. Annie’s.
She put a blanket on mesh took me to her house. It was rather old fashioned. She gave me some cloths which I figured was her late daughter’s. She was really nice. She let me bathe and gave me hot chocolate to warm my body and she also let me stay for the night.
 The next morning I was really happy I had a full breakfast in a while and I left Miss Annie’s promising that I’d come and visit her every day. I was really happy on my way home but when I got there what I saw did not please me it was my father with his new girlfriend laughing like a family and I suddenly felt like I was an outsider to my own father so I ran back to Ms. Annie. I don’t know why but she seemed like the only person whose understand and she did so I went to her every day from then on and she always had her way of helping me out. I knew no matter what changed in my life that she’d always be there.
On Christmas Eve I was about to head to her house. I had a special gift I wanted to give her. I imagined that she would be sitting beside a charismas tree reading a book but when I got there I saw something that was for me the worst thing that could happen. MS Annie was on her bed with a high fever.
I called the doctor right away but the doctor said she had only a few days left to live. When I cried she still consoled me even in that condition and on New Year’s Eve as the landscapes said goodbye to the white snow I said good bye to the person whom I loved and admired the most in the world.
Winter gave me a sweet lasting memory that I will cherish forever in my heart. It gave my best friend and also takes her away from me……


Music My friend

My music my friend
My music you shall never end
I take you everywhere I go
I need you everywhere don’t you know.
My music my friend our friendship shall never end.

My music you are there for me when no one else is.
You let me express my feelings;
Love, hate, frustrations without a word.
You love me unconditionally without any expectations
Without asking anything in return.
My music and me we are forever
Our friendship will end

Never ever ever………….. 

That little girl from once up on a time

Once Up on a time there lived a little girl. She had everything she could ask for; a mother, a brother, a big happy family but most importantly her father, who adored her more than anything in the world.

Sweet little girl she was always covered in colours of pink. A lively little girl she was; always smiling and laughing. She was the main attraction wherever she went; her father’s pride she was; was this little girl’s life always this perfect?

No one knew the truth behind the smiles, of how her mother was never satisfied; for her big perfect family she was not perfect enough but all the while through every obstacle her father was her knight. He would protect his little girl like a precious little flower; never letting anyone near.

Then one day gone was the smile; left with only the bitter thorns to survive.

Her father was gone; and now she was all alone.

Oh! That poor girl how she did cry! But gone was that time her father was alive. No one to protect her now, she was scared and alone. In this big world how would she live. Betrayed by all she trusted; that little girl; she saw too much.

The pain was short live, she buried it deep. She thought she was the oldest; she had to stay strong; but the world had done her so much wrong. People that treated her like a princess; she was now to them a distress. Quietly she bore; the pain of being different; the price of being real.

Black was her color now, all around. She had given up all hope; just letting the days pass by, frozen was her heart; colder than ice. None were invited in her heart; No! She could not possibly take the hurt of losing one again. Lonely was her world now, alone; without any pain. This was alright. This she could take. Not caring about anyone anymore; after all they were all fake.

Each day passed like the last; wasting away. She did not care; after all it was ok. As long as this miserable life would end, she would happily join her dad in heaven. Gone would be this world that treated her like a waste of space, gone would be her mother that did not want her to stay; gone would be the family that wanted someone else.

Once up on a time there lived a little girl

But no more

She is not the sweet little girl she used to be before

She does not see dreams with open eyes anymore

After she had to tell her father goodbye

Broken were her dreams along with her heart

Once up on a time there lived a little girl

But that time has long gone

Empty are her eyes

Every day she dies

A hollow soul inside

The girl from once up on a time

She cried, cried and cried

But now her eyes are dry

Goodbye that little girl from once up on a time…………